On death (TW)

Mortality sucks. Not the concept itself, maybe, but the fact that humans know we are mortal. We know, but don't fully believe, that we will die. We know, but don't fully believe, that our older loved ones will die in our lifetime. We know that our cats, dogs, fish, birds, or any other loved animals will die. We live with the knowledge of death and are in denial of it at the same time.

Some people claim that death is peaceful. I've seen deaths. People, cats. Death is rarely peaceful. My dad had grabbed my hand and wouldn't let go, while the doctors and nurses were shouting at me to leave the room. I left the room. He died. Alone. My mom looked pained and in agony when she died. One of my cats was letting mournful "mews" when he was dying. I think some deaths might be peaceful, but most aren't. It has to be horrible to feel that you are leaving the world, that your organs cannot support your survival anymore.

My aunt passed a couple of months ago. I don't know if she was peaceful or not. I left the hospital for the night, and in the morning we got the phonecall.

People, animals, even plants die and it sucks. And the worse part is that we know it.